19 weeks

Pregnancy: 19 weeks Weight Gain: -20 lbs *sigh* i know i have weight to spare, but it makes me anxious to lose while pregnant. Sleep: about the same. waking up more to pee, and joe has a cold so the snoring has gotten worse. Gender: still TBD. baby was uncooperative, but the u/s lady said she'd 'lean towards girl' based on a shot she got while the baby was flipping around. Name: waiting for the follow up u/s to announce Feeling: hormonal, tired, and fat. grumpy a lot too. Health: okay...allergies and headaches. i can't wear my night guard b/c it makes me gag, so i'm having jaw pains too. Movement: mostly still flutters, a few harder bumps last week. Next Appointment: November 1st for checkup. November 9th for follow up ultrasound- they couldn't get views of the heart, and we'll get to try again for sex confirmation.

Pregnancy updates

Stealing from several blogs I've read.

Pregnancy: 18 weeks 1 day
Weight Gain: -18
Sleep: off and on, some nights are great but i'm usually waking up 3-4 times a night. and did I mention Joe snores? he does- a lot...like, i consider smothering him with a pillow some nights b/c even sleeping with ear plugs doesn't block the sound!
Gender: TBD- TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Name: I have one picked out for boy and girl, but i'm waiting til tomorrow since I totally changed my mind on names after I found out gender with Noah.
Feeling: anxious, terrified, scared...excited.
Health: good
Movement: flutters
Next Appointment: ultrasound tomorrow, next checkup- November 1st.

updates

I've been super quiet on here lately. In May, I had a miscarriage. I guess it was technically a chemical pregnancy, b/c it was over before I even really found out about it, but that didn't make it any less painful. My period was a day late, super heavy, and shorter then normal...I figured I was just lucky by having it be shorter. Then 2 weeks later I started puking, so I took a test b/c I just felt off. and it was positive. But none of the numbers/charts added up. So we went for bloodwork. I had been pregnant but the numbers were dropping, so the doctors said I didn't need to wait any cycles to try again and to just keep taking my vitamins and hoping for the best.

Then in July, we found out we were pregnant again. I didn't want to tell anyone until we heard the heartbeat. Then we heard it, and one of my online friends had a missed miscarriage, so I didn't want to get my hopes up and I was still hesitant about spreading any news. Well, now I'm 17 weeks pregnant and we have our 'big' ultrasound on Tuesday. You'd think that I'd be feeling more confident- I'm feeling baby flutters and there are no signs of any problems- but...I'm still terrified.

I've been carrying the fear around and haven't been able to let it go, so I'm hoping by writing it down I can let it go. I'm optimistic for a healthy baby...I'm even more optimistic that it might be a girl (gut feeling). I won't really voice either of those outloud for fear of jinxing myself, but the thoughts are there...Along with the thoughts that there's going to be something wrong with the baby. Again, no real reason for the thoughts, I think I'm just afraid to be too optimistic this time around.

So, if you have any extra room on your prayer list, I'd appreciate some good thoughts sent our way for an uneventful ultrasound on Thursday morning.

excerpts from tonight

Joe and I both got caught at work later then usual so we decided to meet at Fuddrucker's for dinner. Noah got a cookie with his kid meal and asked for it almost immediately. I told him he had to eat his hot dog before he could have his cookie. He looked at me, looked at Joe and said "daddy wants the hot dog. i have cookie?" nice try kiddo :-P

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As we were pulling out of Fuddrucker's, I got frustrated and yelled 'come on!'

Noah: "JERK! mommy made a mistake"

Me: "no, noah made a mistake"

Noah: "the jerk made a mistake!"

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Joe's car was in front of us at a stop light

Noah: that's daddy! daddy has wheels. daddy has a car. daddy has lights. daddy has to drive. hi daddy. HI daddy. HI DADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mommy, i don't like this cd. new cd please.

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as we were getting him ready for bed, he tooted. joe said "what did you do?"

Noah: i tooted(pause, and a big smile) i like tooting!

me: what do you say when you toot?

Noah: you say Ah-scuse mes!!!

the boy keeps me laughing, that's for sure :-)

dressing choices

I was running later then usual this morning so Noah got into the shower with me. I let him pick what clothes he wanted to wear (jeans and a tractor shirt). After our shower I wrap him in a towel and let him have nakey time while I get dressed.

After I got dressed this morning, I asked if he was ready for a diaper and clothes. No, he was not. Fine, we didn't have anywhere pressing to go so I let him have more naked time. As he's playing, I picked up his jeans and shook them out. Noah looks at me, points down and says "I like these pants". ummm...honey, you're not wearing any pants! "I like these pants, diapers are yucky."

I finally got him in a shirt and diaper (after tricking him by turning on the washing machine so he could see the water). but the pants...so far are a no go.

toddler humor

Noah(pointing at something across the room) that's a butt dip!

Me: a what?!?

Noah: A BUTT DIP!

Me: what's a butt dip?

Noah: hahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaa (giggles uncontrollably)

is this some obscure joke i'm just not getting? does anyone know wtf a butt dip is?

He's got personality!

Humorous stories from this weekend:
-Friday we went to Target and there was a girl about his age crying through the whole store, very loudly and very whiney. we wound up next to them at some point. Noah looked at her and said "you need a nap!"

-I was in the bathroom when Joe came home from work on Friday. Noah heard daddy so ran out of the bathroom to see him. I hear Joe say "where's mommy?" and Noah answered with a very loud "pooping in the bathroom!"

-Sunday night Joe gave Noah his bath and then they came out to watch some Big Bird before bed. Noah was standing in the middle of the living room when he randomly pulls down his pajama pants. I asked what he was doing and he told me...I don't like pants!

-This morning before work Noah was talking to me when he put his hands down his pants. Again, I asked what he was doing and he said "putting hands on the penis". Let's pray this is an indoor only activity for now and we don't have to have the 'penis is for private time' talk quite this early.