blech

being sick while pregnant is NOT fun. I left work early Friday. Was aching so bad I was crying. it hurt to move even. I got home and started puking. took a hot shower and got into pjs. tried to lay down but that hurt even worse. so all weekend was pretty much me lying around in pjs trying to keep some food down and get some rest. and of course, the whole time i'm worried i've hurt the baby somehow. everytime i cough it feels like my uterus is being stretched out :-(.
i still feel the baby moving around some so I'm pretty sure everything's fine, but i'll feel better once i'm over this sickness.

the ultrasound is next Monday. they'll be able to tell us if the baby's healthy and growing correctly, and hopefully tell us the sex of the baby as well. if it's willing to cooperate. and so far, it's been stubborn so I don't think it'll cooperate. but i have a gut feeling it's a little boy.

Doctor's appointment

The appointment yesterday went well. The doctor said she'd guess it's a boy based on the heart rate. We can get our ultrasound between 18-20 weeks, so not too long before we'll know for sure!

I've gained a total of 7 lbs so far, so I'm doing okay with that aspect so far. I asked about my ankle pains and she said my balance was being thrown off by my hips shifting and the belly and it was normal to experience leg and ankle pains. the muscle spasm in my back is also considered perfectly normal.

So I'll schedule the ultrasound, and then my next appointment is December 12th and I'll see a different doctor then, I still have 2 to meet.

My doctor's appointment on Friday got rescheduled, so now it's tomorrow. I'm anxious, I want to hear the baby's heartbeat so badly.
I got a stethoscope on Sunday, and I can hear the baby moving around in there but i can't locate the heartbeat. I'm still not positive i'm feeling the baby move, but i'm pretty definite.

everything else is still going fine. My belly is growing, but I still just look a little chubby. which is odd since my scale said i've lost weight. We'll have to see tomorrow.

thoughts

This weekend was rough. I got very overwhelmed by a lot of things and took it all out on Joe. I finally broke down and just sobbed, then was able to talk to him and tell him how scared I am over so many things.

Also, I'm pretty sure i'm feeling the baby regularly now! I can't wait for the appointment on Friday to find out everything's allright and to hear the heartbeat. I think we get to schedule our big ultrasound this appointment too. so hopefully right around Thanksgiving we'll know what sex our baby is.

I still get hit randomly with how much I love this little baby. It's odd to love something so much and not even really know the baby yet. of course, there are times I feel horrible and hate what the baby is doing to me too. The emotions are not fun, and having to pee 80 times a day/night is definitely not something I look forward to. but the fact that i'm growing a baby that Joe and I made together amazes me everyday. I can't wait to meet him/her!