thoughts

This weekend was rough. I got very overwhelmed by a lot of things and took it all out on Joe. I finally broke down and just sobbed, then was able to talk to him and tell him how scared I am over so many things.

Also, I'm pretty sure i'm feeling the baby regularly now! I can't wait for the appointment on Friday to find out everything's allright and to hear the heartbeat. I think we get to schedule our big ultrasound this appointment too. so hopefully right around Thanksgiving we'll know what sex our baby is.

I still get hit randomly with how much I love this little baby. It's odd to love something so much and not even really know the baby yet. of course, there are times I feel horrible and hate what the baby is doing to me too. The emotions are not fun, and having to pee 80 times a day/night is definitely not something I look forward to. but the fact that i'm growing a baby that Joe and I made together amazes me everyday. I can't wait to meet him/her!