today

Today was an emotionally bad day. I'm still struggling with feelings of failure over losing the baby. I'm struggling with faith in that aspect as well and I can't help but ask what I did to deserve that. I wanted nothing more then to curl in a ball and stay in a bed all day...so, the fact that I managed to get showered, dressed and go to the grocery store is a BIG thumbs up in my book.

I also signed up for Weight Watchers online program again today. I haven't been eating much lately, depression and stomach issues from the meds have just made my appetite non existent. I figured I might as well take advantage of the 6 lbs I've lost and make sure I keep losing too.

In other news, Joe's brothers and father came over today. All of the bedroom furniture is officially out of the play room! Next step is to get the room cleaned and emptied, fix some minor water damage under one window(from a drippy a/c unit), then PAINT! Once it's painted I can actually get all of his toys in there and organized, and reclaim my living room.