Small Talk 6

this weeks' topic 6 things other people do that make you personally uncomfortable.

I'm not sure if these count as uncomfortable or just annoyed, but here goes:

-clearing your throat or 'sucking snot'. it makes me physically ill to hear those sounds.

-people getting way too close. i have very clear personal boundaries, and if your boobs are touching me when you lean over then you're way too close.

-people that don't know how to end a conversation, or the 'socially slow'. you know who they are. the people that continue to hover around you for minutes after a conversation should have been over.

-i don't even have a term for this, but the people that just hang around. they don't add to the conversation, they just listen and lurk around you.

-adjusters. yes, i know all guys do it, but do you really have to do it in front of me? i don't adjust my boobs in front of you so i'm relatively certain you can refrain from touching your package while talking to me.

-tappers. the people that tap/thump on things and make noises. I have a hard time concentrating when there's more then 1 noise going on (ie tv and talking), it gives me a headache and the noise thing is right up there with that.

Thursday pleasures

This week was rough again. Not in the same way, but my company had to do layoff's and I lost some really good friends. It put a downer on the week, but I still have pleasures!

-Facebook, for keeping in touch with above mentioned friends
-proactive doctors, for sending Noah for allergy testing when his excemza kept flairing up and there were no changes at home.
-snowballs! our snowball stand in town opened, so Joe, Noah, and I had snowballs yesterday.
-my new Flip camera.
-Noah asking for his new favorite book by saying "mooooo, lalalalalalaa"
-sunny days and gardening
-a new playground right up the street! Noah and I have been going to swing and slide every night before dinner.
-still having a job. this week brought home how unstable things are, and i'm very thankful that I still have a job.

about Noah

I have a bunch of posts to make about Noah and I just haven't gotten the pictures uploaded. but i'm writing briefly to help me remember.

-we went to his first baseball game on 4/9/09. O's vs The Yankees. we lost.
-Noah is officially cruising and trying to stand on his own. he stood for about 20 seconds yesterday before falling on his bottom (4/19/09)
-he says several words regularly: ball, fan, around, mama, dada, zach, cat, bird, book, all done, and ba-ba. his favorite is 'around'. if i start to sing The Wheels on the bus go...he'll finish it for me.
-he now has 8 teeth. 4 on top, 4 on bottom
-his favorite food is hot dogs and mandarin oranges. he loves fruit of all kinds but isn't big on veggies- except peas.
-in less then 2 weeks, he'll be a year old.

Album Cover

borrowed from Steph

1 - Go to "wikipedia random" the article title is the name of your band.
2 - Go to random quotes, the last four or five words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album.
3 - Go to the flickr random generator, the third picture is your album cover.
4 - Use photoshop or similar to put it all together

Happier post (small talk 6)

topic for this week – 6 animals (domestic, wild, or exotic) you think would be fun to own as pets

1. a parrot. I love birds, i think they're beautiful and intelligent and I would love a pet that could talk back.
2. a ferret. i've had them before and they're just so much fun.
3. a dolphin. i love to swim and I love the water, so a dolphin just makes sense for me.
4. a penguin. super cute and the babies are so fuzzy!
5. a llama. just so i can make it spit at people I don't like.
6. i'm gonna go with a bunny here. i've had lots of bunnies, and I love how they snuggle up right under your chin and give the cutest little bunny kisses. when you're having a bad day, bunny kisses brighten up everything.

Simple somethings

I will warn you, this is not my usual happy "simple pleasures" post. I'm sorry.

My simple pleasure this week was just finishing the week. Things have been rough, and i've been pulling the 'i'm fine' line again. on Good Friday, I blew up. Over something relatively simple too, so I knew it was time to call the doctor and let them know something needed to change. They upped my dosage for zoloft again. I'm still not 100% happy with that office and I really need to find a primary care physician so I can see someone face to face, but at least the ob-gyn is trying.

so this week I was supposed to see how I felt and then call back. I don't know how I feel. I'm still anxious over things, I'm still easily angered and I feel like I have very little control over things. and with these symptoms, I have to wonder if I really even have PPD. Yes, I have little interest in things I used to enjoy. I cry easily, but more often I scream easily. I have days I just want to stay in bed all day- but don't we all? so, I have no clues. I had a better week this week then the last one, but I still just don't feel 'right'.

Noah isn't sleeping and that doesn't help the situation much at all either. and please don't tell me to try crying it out. I got so desperate that I did that one night. it took us 35 minutes for him to calm down and stop crying (we checked on him every 5-8 mins), and then he only slept for an hour. so it's better on me to just go in and soothe him then to hear him cry and STILL get no sleep. and he's learning things so quickly that now I constantly doubt whether I'm providing enough stimulation for him or not. I have so many worries about being a good mom that some nights I just cry for fear that I'm letting him down.

i don't know where I'm going with this, but there it is. sometimes the simplest pleasure of them all is just making it through another day.

I won!

Trinity was kind enough to give me this beautiful award. Here are the rules
1. link back to Trinity (done!)
2. list 7 things that I love
3. link to 7 blogs to let them know they've won, too.

since I love lists, I couldn't resist!
1. My family. I wouldn't be who I am without them, and I wouldn't know what to do without them. They may be crazy, but they're mine.
2. My friends. again, i wouldn't be who I am without them, and I love them all.
3. Facebook. I'm addicted. I love keeping up with people that I haven't seen in awhile, and I have fun with all the lame quizzes and gadgets
4. Music. I always have music on, even when I sleep. I love lyrics, and how there are just certain songs that can express what I'm feeling so much better then any words could.
5. Books. I read, a lot. I love escaping into my books, and I re-read books repeatedly. Some of my favorite characters are also my best friends- I spend lunch with them often.
6. gifts. I love giving out little gifts and toys to my friends, and of course I love getting gifts too.
7. Spring. I had a whole blog entry on how much I love spring, but it's on this list too. I love seasons in general, but Spring is my all time favorite.

7 blogs
Stephanie
Gail
Dawn and Darren
Jenni
Barbara
Amanda
Katie


and there you go!