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being sick while pregnant is NOT fun. I left work early Friday. Was aching so bad I was crying. it hurt to move even. I got home and started puking. took a hot shower and got into pjs. tried to lay down but that hurt even worse. so all weekend was pretty much me lying around in pjs trying to keep some food down and get some rest. and of course, the whole time i'm worried i've hurt the baby somehow. everytime i cough it feels like my uterus is being stretched out :-(.
i still feel the baby moving around some so I'm pretty sure everything's fine, but i'll feel better once i'm over this sickness.

the ultrasound is next Monday. they'll be able to tell us if the baby's healthy and growing correctly, and hopefully tell us the sex of the baby as well. if it's willing to cooperate. and so far, it's been stubborn so I don't think it'll cooperate. but i have a gut feeling it's a little boy.

Doctor's appointment

The appointment yesterday went well. The doctor said she'd guess it's a boy based on the heart rate. We can get our ultrasound between 18-20 weeks, so not too long before we'll know for sure!

I've gained a total of 7 lbs so far, so I'm doing okay with that aspect so far. I asked about my ankle pains and she said my balance was being thrown off by my hips shifting and the belly and it was normal to experience leg and ankle pains. the muscle spasm in my back is also considered perfectly normal.

So I'll schedule the ultrasound, and then my next appointment is December 12th and I'll see a different doctor then, I still have 2 to meet.

My doctor's appointment on Friday got rescheduled, so now it's tomorrow. I'm anxious, I want to hear the baby's heartbeat so badly.
I got a stethoscope on Sunday, and I can hear the baby moving around in there but i can't locate the heartbeat. I'm still not positive i'm feeling the baby move, but i'm pretty definite.

everything else is still going fine. My belly is growing, but I still just look a little chubby. which is odd since my scale said i've lost weight. We'll have to see tomorrow.

thoughts

This weekend was rough. I got very overwhelmed by a lot of things and took it all out on Joe. I finally broke down and just sobbed, then was able to talk to him and tell him how scared I am over so many things.

Also, I'm pretty sure i'm feeling the baby regularly now! I can't wait for the appointment on Friday to find out everything's allright and to hear the heartbeat. I think we get to schedule our big ultrasound this appointment too. so hopefully right around Thanksgiving we'll know what sex our baby is.

I still get hit randomly with how much I love this little baby. It's odd to love something so much and not even really know the baby yet. of course, there are times I feel horrible and hate what the baby is doing to me too. The emotions are not fun, and having to pee 80 times a day/night is definitely not something I look forward to. but the fact that i'm growing a baby that Joe and I made together amazes me everyday. I can't wait to meet him/her!

Good News!

We found out Friday that Joe is NOT a cystic fibrosis carrier! It was a huge relief for both of us, and made our weekend together that much better not having it hanging over our heads.

On the downside, my emotions seem to have gone into overdrive. I yell at Joe a lot more then I should, and I get very easily frustrated with everyone and everything. The cats are driving me nuts. Maestro has something wrong with his butt, and he's leaving poo stains on the couch. It's not safe for me to be around- so Joe is going to have to take him to the vet and see what they can do. I'm ready to just get rid of all of them. They destroy my house (they've already scratched up my brand new table!!!!), they stink, and they're mean. At least Teller is mean. Penn is just trouble, and Maestro is just evil. He doesn't bite like Teller does, he just glares at you- and he smacks me. Anyone want 3 cats?

My tummy is starting to expand, I'm still waiting to feel the baby move. I think I felt something, but it's just too hard to tell right now. I'm waiting anxiously for my next doctor's appt, we should definitely be able to hear the heartbeat at that appointment.

Oh- and I officially made it out of the first trimester!

doctor's appointment

I had my second pre-natal checkup on Friday. It was a bit stressful for me... I was told I'm a cystic fibrosis carrier. Joe has to be tested now, and there's not a big chance that he'll have it too. But it's still really scary for me. I just feel so utterly helpless. There's nothing I can do to change the fact that I'm a carrier, and if Joe is too, then there's nothing we can do if the baby does have it. I'm praying hard that he's not a carrier. If he is, there's only a 25% chance that the baby would have it. I always dreamed of a big family, but if we're both carriers then this will probably be our only baby. I couldn't put any other babies at risk knowing ahead of time that we both carried it.

Aside from that news, everything is going great. I'm measuring a little ahead of time- 14 weeks, and i'm at 12 weeks. but not enough that the doctor is concerned, they're keeping my due date in late April. They weren't able to hear the heartbeat so they did a quick scan to see it. The baby was laying in there sucking away on his/her thumb. It's still sitting pretty low, so they couldn't hear the heartbeat through my pubic bone. I've gained 3 lbs so far, right on target.

and- my morning sickness seems to be going away somewhat- I only get nauseous if I wait too long to eat now. I can feel the top of my uterus if i lay down, it's neat to know I'm growing a little human in there. I can't wait to feel the baby move for the first time!!!

My next appointment is November 9th.

thoughts

i can't focus on anything, and i think the baby is eating my brain. i just feel 'spacey', and i'm soooo tired. i would love to just curl up on the ground and take a nap right now.

i want icecream- but not just any icecream, i want DQ dipped cones

I don't think we've cooked or gone to the store for real food in like 3 weeks. i can't go into a grocery store without gagging.

my chair is really uncomfortable, i'm going to have to talk to someone about getting a different one.

we need to schedule vet appts for the cats

i have a busy weekend. jewelry party friday, reece's birthday party saturday, brunch with the girls on sunday

my back hurts, i may give in and take a tylenol :-/