No big updates, just random stuff. Noah has been moving more often and my tummy is getting harder. I had Braxton Hicks contractions yesterday morning. and now i'm getting scared of daycare. i know my mom and joe's mom will be watching him, but i just can't get past the fact that i won't be able to raise my own kid. I'm already having separation anxiety and he's still in my uterus! I'm definitely going to have a hard time getting used to it. I hate expressing it, b/c I know Joe feels like it's his fault and that he needs to make more money. it's not and i've never told him that, i don't know how to even say what it is i'm worried about b/c I don't know. I'm partially afraid of missing little moments- what if i'm not around when Noah takes his first step, or says his first word? what if he prefers grandma to me and runs for her all the time? there are so many little what if questions that terrify me, and i guess it comes down to me being afraid i'll miss something or the baby won't like me.
allright, i'll try to calm down and think rationally. i know he'll love me b/c i'm his mom and i'll be able to provide his necessities. i just can't believe how close everything is now. we start childbirth classes in 15 days! I'm in my 3rd trimester- only 3 months left to get ready for the munchkin. and i still have lots of things i want to get accomplished:
-buy recliner
-hang shades and curtains and artwork
-buy a new entertainment center, so we can
-set up the new system we got for christmas
-get a fence put in around the property
anyway- here's the latest belly picture, i'm definitely getting bigger now!
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