23 weeks

I'm 23 weeks today, and I'm freaking out. I got my weekly email that said I should be feeling strong karate kicks by now. I'M NOT!!!! and the email said if i pushed on my abdomen and moved it to the side, baby would respond. HE DOESN'T!!! so now of course, i'm worried something's wrong. I haven't felt strong movement in a day or so. I thought the worry would gradually go away as the pregnancy went along, but so far it hasn't. and man, you think crazy thoughts when you get worried. Things like- what if i rolled over too fast in the middle of the night and hurt him. or, what if we jinxed the pregnancy by buying nursery furniture and clothes for him already? and the craziest thing by far, is everything you'll do to try and make baby move. I've drank hot cocoa, cold juice, done jumping jacks in the bathroom at work, poked my belly, yelled at the baby in the car... and all i've gotten is an annoyed little thump. I want him to wake up and kick the bejeesus out of me.

Noah, you worry your mommy and you need to wake up and start moving around.