I survived

My first week back at work is over! It was harder then I thought it would be, but the smiles I got when I got home each night made it a little easier to get through.

It's still going to take some getting used to. He isn't eating too much during the day, and when I get home he's nursing a lot more and longer again. I hope he eventually gets more used to the bottle and starts eating more, I don't want him to lose weight! Joe's home with him until the end of August, so we have a kind of 'transitional daycare' thing going on. This way we know how much milk to send along to daycare(grandma's house), and he gets used to mommy not being there all day.
On my part, I get through the day by keeping pictures of Noah up at my desk and bragging about him to anyone that will listen to me. I don't think I made it through a day without crying this week, and leaving him in the morning is so difficult. It is nice to see my co-workers, and I'm glad that I work with some great people.

Here's a brief run down of the week
Sunday: i'm the only one in the office this day, I cried twice during the day but for the most part was able to listen to my headphones and just get through.
Monday: now everyone else is back in the office, so I get to see people. I forgot parts of my pump at home, Joe and Noah had to come up and bring them to me. I spilt milk and cried. Had a check-in with my new supervisor, he's pretty cool and easy to talk to.

Tuesday: was a blur. I was completely exhausted from the long work days and just ready for the week to be over. Nothing big happened at work. I got a big belly laugh from Noah when he saw me at the end of the day :-)

Wednesday: my last day of the work week. leaving this morning was the hardest yet, i was crying before i was even out the door. had meetings from 1-3, that made the afternoon go quickly. Now I get 3 days with both my guys before I have to go back on Sunday!

Rootcanal tomorrow, wish me luck!

sappy

I love my husband. Yes, I know that seems slightly obvious given the fact that I did marry him and have a child with him. and it's not something new or anything like that considering we've been together for about 6 years and been friends for over 10 years. But it's the daily little things he does for me that remind me of what a great man he is.
This week has been rough on me, and he's been great. I fell asleep last night and forgot to plug in my cell phone and to put my freezer packs back in the freezer. Joe remembered for me. and he woke up this morning to pack lunch for me so I could have extra time with Noah. Actually, he packs lunch for me most mornings. as well as makes dinner!

I also love the fact that he doesn't pick on me or call me silly for coming back for just *one* more hug from Noah 4 or 5 times before I actually make it out the door in the morning.

I just wanted to acknowledge how great and wonderful he is and how lucky I am to have him in my life.

Being a mommy sure has made me a lot more sappy then I ever was before!

Makes everything worthwhile

I live for his smiles!

Mommy, I miss you!

Joe is on FMLA for 4 weeks now, while I went back to work today. so far i've only cried twice! Joe sent this picture to me this morning after Noah woke up for the day. I can't believe how big my little boy is getting!

As if I needed

something else to worry about- my milk has suddenly disappeared today. I think it's probably related to the stress I have about going back to work, hopefully it'll come back soon. Noah is still eating fine, I'm just not pumping as much as I used to.

**after this post, i realized it was b/c all i'd eaten all day was a bagel and a snack wrap from McDonald's. idiot**

2 month pictures

are down below. I try to keep this thing in order somewhat, but that often means changing the date of my posts so they're more in line. maybe if I actually updated on time and in order, I wouldn't have to do that :-P

and just b/c it's cute- here's a picture of Noah trying 'seafood' for the first time




*no seahorses were harmed in the making of this photo

It's Saturday

and in the Hamilton household, that means Panera Bread. I just noticed, for the past month or so every Saturday Joe gets us bagels from Panera. I usually get a caramel frozen coffee. Today I was in the mood for something warm, so I got a regular coffee. and I will never make that mistake again. I'm not a coffee snob at all (i put so much cream and sugar in them that it barely resembles coffee), but this stuff is just craptastic. I think Joe wound up putting 7 giant scoops of sugar in it just so I could finish the cup.

In other news, it's also my last full day with Noah before I go back to work. I'm an emotional wreck and have been all week. Last night, I left him with Joe to run a few errands and he fell asleep before I got home. I sobbed for a good 5 minutes b/c I missed my nighttime snuggles and reading time. But Noah woke up 30 minutes after I got home and wanted to nurse, so I felt a little better. I just promised myself I'd always be there when it was bed time.

I'm doing a *little* better then I previously was with the whole idea of going back to work. I miss some of my co-workers and I'm looking forward to seeing them. But the long days are going to suck. It also sucks that I'm going to have to pump so much more. I just don't enjoy the pump at all. I have problems getting my nipple centered in the shield, or I pick the wrong size shield- and I wind up with blood blisters on my nipple or it starts peeling. all in all, not a pleasant situation. but it's important to me to continue nursing so I'll suck it up and pump.

Oh- and i'm a bad mommy that let the camera batteries die, so I have missed some excellent photo opportunities this past week-Noah played peek-a-boo with his bath towel after a bath! It was freaking adorable. He's also started laughing and shrieking. I can't believe how much he's changed already. I need to upload his 2 month photos before it's time for his 3 month photos!